The Art of Being a Lady

Lately I've been working on one of my many projects I had set out to do for 2016, and as it grows to and end I figured better late than never, right?! I finally took out the time to go through inspiring photographs and quotations for my vision board.

As, I was doing this, I asked myself what I wanted to project through my board. What did I want to accomplish, who did I want to be, what was the grandest vision possible for my life? Pinterest was my best friend during the entire process. Inspired by the many photos and little things, I began to notice something about myself. All of my pictures had to do with self growth but also femininity. I have woman like First Lady Obama, Emma Watson, and many other influential woman in our society. What do they all have in common? They are all elegant woman. 

 You know, I don't consider myself to be very feminine. I put on makeup and dress in female clothes but I'm not the girly girl type. I've always been a bit of a tomboy. Always sporting comfy and relaxing clothes. I CAN go outside without doing my hair or makeup, I can wear the same thing two, three and even four times, I rather put on a pair of sneakers than a pair of heels. That's just me, so then why is my inner self projecting a completely different woman in my board?

I concluded that the problem lies with number one, self esteem and number two, the lack of money. Although I'd like to think I have good self esteem, the image I project to the rest of the world may not be what I think it to be like in reality. I'm a mom of three toddlers. To find the time for me is next to impossible. So, I don't look my best all of the time. Really though, who can chase toddlers in heels? Not me that's for sure! I'm then obligated to opt for the comfy sneakers and yoga pants. Some may suggest waking up earlier before the kids get up in order to have time for myself to get ready. Let's be honest, ain't no body doin' that. My 10 month old has yet to have a sleeping pattern/schedule and is up the majority of the night and up bright and early with the other two. My spirits sometime's are just dragging behind me in the dirt...

As I mentioned before, my other struggle is the lack of money. What do I mean by this? I mean, being broke! Although my husband works a full-time job, we only make enough money to make ends meet. We budget as if there was there is no tomorrow! We don't really have the means to buy "extra" things. Affording things like, going to get my nails done or even updating my wardrobe is a hard feat to accomplish...ever.  The fashionable and luxury attire I want is simply unattainable at the moment. 

But that's okay! Therefore, the purpose of the vision board. To aspire to better! This brings me to what I wanted to share with you all. In planning my vision board, I came to the realization that I want to be better, a better person, a better wife and mother, a better woman. The art of being a lady has disappeared and I want to be an example and help empower woman by bringing it back. This doesn't mean taking away the progress woman have made over centuries but to strengthen what separates us from the men and be inspiring, influential, strong woman for the rising generations. I invite you to subscribe to my channel and follow my blog to join me in my journey of becoming a badass woman in today's world. Yet remaining, poised, elegant, and feminine. I want to be someone people respect, admire and aspire to being. Hopefully, you will too. So join me next week for our first lessons on how to be a lady. There will be a new video up to go along with my posts! Till next time,...

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Heart to Heart: Reality Check Rant

I know how much you all just love my life updates,...riiiight? .-. I must admit, that I feel a bit discouraged lately. Nothing is really going as I had hoped since the beginning of the New Year. I started out with such motivation and positivity and needless to say, it's slowly going down. 

I guess in a way, I compare myself  too much to other successful bloggers and youtubers, even instagramers, to the point where I almost envy their success. It's something I want so bad. You, know I've read so many quotes that make me think it's meant to be, and somehow I can achieve it. But to my misfortune reality is telling a different story. There is always something that prevents me from doing a task or project I've set out to complete. Maybe I'm just making excuses for myself or maybe it really isn't meant to be...?

I don't consider my life to be hectic or busy in the sense that I have to go "here and there," it's more like...I have to do "this and that." My husband works two jobs, so I'm left most of the time alone tending to my kids who are toddlers, and my wifely duties and chores. At the end of the day, I'm exhausted wondering how time flew by so fast. Not, to mention the fact that I'm 36 weeks pregnant. I'm as big as a whale and feels like one too. So, you tell me..how am I supposed to do this? How am I supposed to do what makes me happy, and still tend to my family responsibly? I mean, I have the equipment, I have the materials, I have the ideas, I have the determination... but no time? 

Some would say, make a schedule, have a routine. Great Idea! If I didn't already have one,...that changes constantly because kids are unpredictable. Nap time is at noon, well Jacob doesn't want to nap and wakes Sam up. Okay, let's try free play while I go and do chores... kids decide to make a mess I just cleaned up. While the kids sleep at night, film.... well, turns out you're now exhausted from the whole day and just want to sleep. Just this week, my kids caught a pneumonia! Yay, sick all week tending to them pretty much on my own...nothing got done and I'm a zombie. At this far along in pregnancy, staying up soothing kids or waking up at certain hours of the night to administer medicine sucks. So, I don't have the energy to even get up. This month alone, I'm having to tend to the kids, be a wife, pack my entire house, and move to our new place while awaiting the timely birth of our third child any day now. A lot to get done for the end of the month isn't it?

I try to fulfill projects,...I honestly do. For example a few weeks ago I filmed a simple makeup tutorial. I haven't had time to edit it for uploading to my channel. So it's rendering useless in my computer. 

Time isn't even the half of it. I know it takes a lot to build a strong genuine following. I want to be a successful youtuber, a successful blogger- even make money off of it...but it seems no one supports me. Although I get many visits, no one subscribes or even comments on my content. My facebook page is a ghost town,... Why? Am I boring? Does what I post not interest anyone? I do this because I like it, and I want to make my passion my pay check...but how if nothing is working out? Maybe I have to endure this hard slow start. But, the truth is,...it's very discouraging. So the question is, do I endure in hopes of achieving a following, and success or stop because it's only time wasted since I have yet to see the fruits of my labours? 

I set out this year to be my year to shine. I got accepted into college, we are moving province, we are awaiting our little addition to the family, I have so many hopes for this blog and youtube channel..but I'm caught between being realistic and facing the music or chasing after what seems to be a far fetched dream. I have the potential, I have the determination...but there's just something missing. Do any of you feel lost or unclear what path you should be on right now? Stay strong...

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New Blog, New Year, New Me

When I started blogging more than 2 years ago, I have a vision in my head. I wanted to be at the top. Who doesn't right? But, oh how quickly I found out that it wouldn't be easy. I began targeting and English speaking audience, and found that there was so much "competition" and thought to myself, who would be interested in me? So, I quickly switch over targeting a spanish speaking audience. I found much success there to my surprise, but something didn't feel right. It wasn't me. After having my first baby, I felt different. I had a different fashion sense, makeup look, everything about me was different. Although I continued in my old fashion blogger ways, I never felt satisfied with my work and what I was writing about. So now, I've decided to start a new... a new blog, a new year, and new me. 

I've matured over the years as would anyone, but I feel now is my time to really shine. Beauty and Fashion are my passions,... as well as other talents I've developed over the time I've been away. I now have 2 babies, and one on the way! How crazy is that? I own a small photography business and live a simple yet happy life. I would love to share it with you all, including my fashion and beauty knowledge. I have so many plans and ideas for this year on my blog, youtube channel and social medias. I'm re-vamping everything! New content, woo - hoo! I'm very excited. Remember, everyone is beautiful...
I want to thank those who have stuck with me through the years, with out you, I would've never gotten this far! I promise you won't be disappointed. I'll talk to you soon! Until next time,

Love Kimii

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Realidad Ulzzang: Olchang Ratina

(por si tienen dudas....es una tienda de verdad)

Hace unas semanas atras vi un video sobre este tema y pues me anime para apoyar la causa y levantar mi voz tambien. En mi sincera opinion, creo que esta chica tiene toda la razon! Porque? Porque aun yo he sido "víctima" de esto. No lo digo asi como, aaaaaaaa soy viiiiictima, estoy herida! No. Lo digo en el sentido de que he sido testiga por experencia propia que esto de verdad pasa en las comunidades latin ulzzang. Ya sea en facebook, ask, instagram, tumblr y muchas redes mas. Yo digo,...basta ya! 
El video esta dividido en partes como estereotipos, crueldad/bullying, no puedes ser ulzzang, anonimato, no hay apoyo, no eres asiatico y otros. Quiero hacer esta entrada sobre los mismo pero mi version con mi opinion personal. 
Empiezo desde el comienzo...
En el 2011 descubrí la moda ulzzang atravez de mi hermana menor. Me fascinó y empecé a buscar Ulzzangs en el internet, me encontre con paginas en facebook asi de personas apenas comenzando en el estilo y de competencias en Ingles. Participe en muchos, perdia y perdia hasta que lentamente ganaba y ganaba. En unas de estas paginas me encontre con algien de origen peruano que practicaba la moda ulzzang. Me inspire en ella y me di cuenta que existian los Latin Ulzzangs. En ese tiempo solo habian como 3 paginas latinas de esto. Los que administraban estas paginas tambien se llamaban latin ulzzangs, y tambien me inspire en ell@s. Participaba en cada concurso que podia para asi hacer un nombre para mi, y reputacion. Hasta que un dia me pelie con vari@s de ell@s y desde ese dia todo mi trabajo se fue por la poseta. Cada publicacion que hacia habia halgo malo dicho, o cada photo era "xui xui" y asi continuo la cosa. En los grupos solo esperaban que te equivocaras o halgo para hay mismito caerte y volverte poo. Llego el dia que esto me canso y no me aguante mas. Cree una pagina que luego se volvio una organizacion legitima/legal, dedicada a la buscqueda de los Latin Ulzzangs, y hacerlo oficiales. Se llamaba "Official Latin Ulzzangs." Mi pagina se dedicaba solo al apoyar el nuevo talento y potenciales latin ulzzangs. Creo que para muchos era una pagina de esperanza. No discriminamos, y todo el mundo era bienvenido. Aun con esta pagina, llege ser criticada, burrlada y ofendida por muchos. Pero hacia halgo bueno por los Latin Ulzzangs y en su tiempo tuvo mucho exito.

Ahora, esta organizacion no esta activa. Tuve mis 2 bebes y tuve que ponerlo en pausa, y sacar mi familia adelante. En parte tuve que madurar y difinitivamente ser responsable. Actualmente me cuesta sacar tiempo para mi blog. Es dificil. Y les cuento que hasta el dia de hoy, aun soy criticada y todo lo demas. 

En este mundo de los latin ulzzang, no hay apoyo. Si publicas una foto- usastes xui xui, si creastes una pagina, "quien te dijo que eres Ulzzang?" Si te cortastes el flequillo-eres Alexia, otra copia mas,  si tienes circle lens- luces alien, y asi todo es criticado hasta llegar a que eres "Olchang Ratina." Creo que alexia es bonita y luce bien con sus estilos. Pero hay muchos mas que tambien pueden ser inspirados por. Y solo porque sean diferentes no significa que son menos o mas ulzzang que otro. Ulzzang para mi es usar las caracteristicas basicas de la moda asiatic (ulzzang) al mismo tiempo conservar tus caracteristicas latinas. Yo he dicho mil y una vez que yo me edito la nariz, y oculto mis pandas y aun asi, publico fotos en mi instagram de mi vida cotidiana de ser mami. Sin maquillaje, sin ser ulzzang. Solo digo...

Anyways, ahora pienso muy diferente, que antes. Ahora, no me importa si me critican o si publico una foto de mi sin maquillaje. Si disgustan de mi tanto porque soy tema de su conversacion? Dejen de atacar, seriously. Yo tengo mi blog y mi pagina porque disfruto hacer entradas y publicar fotos de mi. Deseo inspirar a algien, ya sea que solamente sea una persona. Ahora que no tengo mucho tiempo por estar destras de mi hijos. El tiempo que si saco para mi, lo invierto en halgo que me hace feliz. Estoy haciendo lo que me hace feliz. Si algien tiene un problema con eso,.. lo siento. Dejen de leer y buscen otro blog para seguir. Pero solo porque me dicen que no soy ulzzang o que no me queda bien el estilo o lo hago por los likes y que se yo; voy a parar de hacer lo que me gusta? Yo digo... F*ck You. Por lo menos me atrevo a practicar un estilo en que me identifico con, y publico cosas que las personas disfrutan y pueden inspirarse en. Crecer no significa que tienes que ser una persona aburridora. Soy mama, soy esposa y soy ulzzang. Nadia me va venir a desanimar. Y eso se lo digo tambien a ustedes, No dejen que nadie los desanimen. Si hay personas negativas que no te apoyan, remuevelos de tu vida. Practicar es la unica forma de llegar ser mejores ulzzangs. Asi que si te delienastes mucho, pues ya sabes para la proxima no tanto....tu outfit no se vio bien, intenta otro....y asi. Todos somos latinos y nos gusta el estilo Ulzzang. Y en vez de hecharnos tierra uno al otro, porque no unirnos y mostrarle al mundo que no solo Korea tienen ulzzangs. No tienes ser asiatico para nada! Tenemos que apoyarnos uno al otro. Somos jovenes y este tipo de bullying tiene que parar...o si no, jamas llegaremos a ser nada. De que vale ser bonita y super ulzzang si tu corazon es feo? Piensen en esto... si las palabras de tu corazon manifestarían en tu piel, aun serias bonita? Karma es un B*tch. Traten bien a los demas, porque nuncas sabes cuando te toque a ti... En las palabras de Ellen Degeneres, "Séan amables entre sí." ( Be kind to one another ) Espero que hayan disfrutado esta entrada. Sinseramente es lo que pienso. Y como dije antes, si no les gusta mi blog y lo que escribo, no estan obligados a seguirlo y respeto sus opiniones. Para los que si me apoyan, mil gracias! XOXO los quiero mucho!
Hasta la proxima,
Kimii

Antes de que se me olvide, que tipo de cosas nuevas quieren ver en el blog? Dejen sus comentarios <3
(No me he olvidado del sorteo- no se preocupen, anuciare un ganador pronto!)

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Dear, Kimii... Ser o No Ser esa es La Pregunta?

Por si no han visto, tengo una sección en mi blog que se llama Dear, Kimii...

La comenze la semana pasada solo poniendo una pancarta pequeña en el lado de mi plantilla. La verdad no pense que nadie hiba a escribirme nada, pero me alegra que unas cuantas personitas lo hicieron. Esta sección la cree para aquellas personas que no tienen en quien confiar, que los escuchen o relacionar con. Yo no sigo consejos muy bien, pero soy buena dando. Aunque solo ayude a una persona sentirse mejor, con eso tengo. Dejando el autor en anonymo y sin nombrar a nadie, compartire con ustedes algunas historias que me escribieron durante la semana cada fin de semana. Espero que también hayan personas que pueden relacionarse con cada historia. Esta es la primera que recibi.

Ser, o no ser esa es la pregunta?

♥ Dear, Kimii...
Siempre me ha gustado la moda asiática, y últimamente he estado muy inspirada para finalmente  vestirme así. Yo vivo en una cuidad donde no es común, y me veo un poco extraña para lo demas. De verdad amo cómo me veo, pero aveces se burlan de mí ya sea en casa o en la escuela. Esto me hace sentir insegura de mi misma y avergonzada de como me veo. Sera que debo dejar de tratar esto o solo amarlo en secreto?

♥ Respuesta:
Dear Nabi,..
Pienso que si deverdad te gusta no importa que digan or piensan los demas. Enserio, depronto suena muy cursi pero es de la forma en que tienes que pensar. Yo digo siempre me digo esto, "do what makes your soul happy." Haz lo que haces tu almo feliz. Si te sientes bonita y te identificas con un estilo, porque dejarlo sólo porque una persona hizo un comentario tonto sobre halgo que no entienden? No tienes que ser asiatca para vestir asi. Los pescados tienen branquias cierto? Peces tienen escalas tambien verdad? Es como preguntar porque los tienen? Te vistes asi o te maquillas asi porque esa eres tu y debes atesorar que eres diferente y unica. Los mas sercanos a ti no te deben hacer sentire mal y punto. Si no quieres personas negativas que solo te traen abajo serca de ti, remuevelos de tu circulo. Si no quieres ser tan drastica habla con ellos. Si deverdad son tus amigos diles que te molesta que te hagan sentir asi, y que agradecerás si te apoyaran en lugar de derrumbarte. Dependiendo de donde vives hay communidades ulzzang que hacen juntas para asi conoser mas gente que comparte tus gustos. Si eres como yo y no hay nadie serca, pertenece a grupos online. Soy la unica ulzzang creo en mi cuidad y aun asi, me visto como quiero, me maquillo como quiero y hasta tengo mi familia & esposito que me aman asi como soy. Me apoyan en lo que me hace feliz. No te rindas! Sigue, y en un futuro ojala no muy lejano veras que valio la pena.

Ojala esto sea de ayuda para algien, especialmente a la personita que me envio el email. Si tienes halgo que quisieras compartir, un secreto que quieres decir en anonymo o que se yo, una noticia buena que quiere dejarle al mundo saber, claro todo en anonimo, no dudes en enviarme un email a official.kimiiamaya@gmail.com
Hasta la proxima,
Kimii

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